2013年10月30日星期三.
Can I move out from the house?
Can I?
From day one i started my working life,
never be in a peaceful mood.
why should u guys give me so much of pressure?
the pressure from u guys make me feel like dying!
Always hope me can be like sister! Can I be like her, I go to sell cigarette to earn money? now opened up her own shop. Can I?
she fight for her own, u guys said is not good to go and sell cigarette. now open up a shop u guys said she is awesome,fight for herself.
What about me?
isn't i fighting for myself now?
why have to force me to do what i do not like to do?
9 - 5 work, can earn money?
until the time i work as normal clerk what u will say again?
i got no money la this la that la.
Maybe now i fight so hard and i get ntg, but i gained experience.
Im only 24 years old, is the best time for me to fight for my 30 years old..
and u guys will just like to scold me..
everyday everyday & everyday..
Can u guys feel proud of me instead of looking at the salary that i earning now??
Can u guys feel a little bit of happy for me that i really make all those success in my career??
no proud of me,no happy for me, but keep blaming, keep scolding,
sister work i didn't?
sister can go back late without working why i cant?
only she is ur daughter and im not?
i facing alots of problem during work time,
who can share with??
not u not u!!u guys will just scold me im stupid im sick im useless im idiot.
ya..im!!
so how?
why have to compare me with sister? why want to make me feel angry on sister?
why?
is because of u guys!!
u guys always said i dowan to share my job life with u guys,
share what??
Do know when started..
when i drive home,
i feel so pressure when i step into that door..
I pray to god and hope,
please let me go mad as soon as possible..
stay in Tanjung Rambutan without any burden..
Sick of my life,
Sick of my job..
sick of myself..
im fail,im useless..
i fail to be a daughter, forgive me..
i doknow what to do more!
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